thank goodness for them

who ? My galfrens .. my support system.. this week has been pretty sucky. had some negative thoughts swimming around this twisted mind of mine. felt small, incapable, not efficient and the list goes on.. thankfully i have an awesome support system in uni and support system at home. i <3 them so much! and i really really do! do i feel better? i still feel sucky. but thankfully i have ppl who can share this sucky feeling with me.

School is sucky! exams shitty.. galfrens awesome !! thank goodness for that..

this post is a tribute to my awesome galfrens.. and a declaration that i hate school :P

countdown - one month and 4 days

to.......... FINALS! shitty..

i have been very inefficient this sem. Really. feel free to slap this lazy person to remind her that finals is coming in 4 freaking weeks and she still has 2 projects to submit. Plus her aiesec responsibilities.

argh i am feeling very very very very very small at the moment. as if i am not capable of anything good. gah.. ke-pekchik-an.

with my screwed up sleeping cycle, i am headed for doom-nation :O

sila bangun dari ke-inefficiency-an anda and start to kick ass..

(ok la i have been pretty hardworking for the last two weeks catching up with all my lectures for midterm. but after midterms, i need to be reminded that finals is also coming!!!! wake up carmen -smacks!!-)

of love. and den of frustration fun

For the love part,

I attended my cousin's wedding yesterday. And really it was a nice one. You can clearly tell my cousin was in love with his wife as his wife is to him. Simple wedding but rather touching i would say. And my cousin was grinning practically the whole time :) Happiness in the air is rather contagious and emphasized with spending time with the family. It was really good distraction from the academic 'hell' i had going on in my head due to linear.

For the frustration fun part,

Of course , back to real world the moment i am back in school ( of course i was sneaking looks at my notes during the wedding whenever i can). Deciding that suffering personally was too hard to bear me and roomate decided to crash study with out fellow malayian school mates. And i will tell you that was really one good decision. my confused mind was enlighten numerous times and my darkened scowl was brightened by random laughter of craziness. Thank god for awesome support system or really school WILL be a living hell with spawns of evil like linear algebra ( ok random)and i found out my hair styling skills may just be my mattress if i fall from uni academic level due to math (ok that sentence do not really makes sense)- just trying to be poetic.

Doomsday is in 3 hours. Scared and have a shitty feeling that i may just not score a single mark. But having assured that i can still go into hair styling ( random. thanks model gwo shiou) if i fail, i am gonna continue chiong-ing.

singapore again

after an awesome 'less than a week' home i am officially back and ready to kick ass ( positive reinforcement)

Its been AWESOME back.. why?
10 reasons :
1) Homemade MOONCAKES and ping pei ones from marco polo :P
2) New glasses from esprit ( thanks bro and elycia)
3) shopping madness :P
4) I GOT MY PAIR OF GLADIATORS THAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR 6 MONTHS!
5) spending time (read shopping) with Kevin ( sorry dearest tower 1, i promise i won't lie the next time we shop.. I'll just stop mentioning that the next shop is the last :P)
6) HUMONGOUS crabs yesterday which i have been craving like mad for family dinner
7) my bed
8) BABY!! omg i am missing baby already :(
9) Malaysian food.

and number 10 though its actually the most important

FAMILY TIME! lepaking with jonny, gossiping with justin, manja-ing with daddy and heart to heart talk with mummy :) I miss my family:) and baby..

This trip has been of oh too short but its been refreshing.. daddy and keong gor coming down next weekend so its more family time :) for ah hoong gor's holy matrimony..

but as for now.. ony one thing on my mind( or at least it should be the only ==> MIDTERMS ( maths summore)) chiong chiong chiong !!

PS : i realise that emailing is fun :)

AWESOMENESS

Pretty obvious that i am talking about home :)

I feel so pampered whenever i am back..

Food list that i have had so far :
1. LEMANG AND RENDANG!!
2. Mom's homemade coleslaw (made only for me:P)
3. Mom's homecooked kailan
4. Jelly mooncake
5. SWEET CORN!! - the really sweet ones
6. uncle bobs's fried chicken
7. Salad popiah with seaweed
8. Mom's homemade soup
9. Mat tou lo tong sui
10. Mummy's homemade tong kwai soup with chicken

So as you can tell i have been eating like mad. Which i always do when i am back. I did like an hour of studying on the bus and that has been it.. TRY to study later.

Next : SHOPPING! with KEVIN!! ahahha i swear you can never get an awesomer friend who does not mind my shopping mania..(though i kindly told him that he can opt out this time..)

Emotions : HIGH (probably from the rush of sugar and food consumed, and an email :p)

of sun burns, sore legs and FUN with EB in ubin

It was an amazing day. Really awesome. Why ??

Cos i spent it with my beautifully crazily workholic-ly awesome EB team. Of course as usual in AIESEC,you do things that you never normally do in real life. So what we did. We went to Pulau Ubin and cycled around the island. Under the scouring hot sun. Walked around the island under the sun. Cycle uphill and cruised down hill ( which was really really fun)

I loved spending time with this group of amazing ppl. This ppl totally made the hideous sunburn that i have ( cousin wedding next next week! my back damn ugly la!!) and the aching thighs i have now WORTH IT!! and i have to admit, cycling was really fun.

Den we went to lau pa sat to meet moligle (monica , lizard, eagle :P) to have dinner. i had porridge of spicy chicken. And i have to admit i have never had that before.. very interesting. and some heart to heart sharing of NON FAT ( F**king AIESEC talk) stuff just chilling by the singapore river.... it was really nice .. really :)

There was actually a pact that we are not going to open our emails tonight. But me being me, well i did.. And i have tonnes of work to do now. and preparations for home studying to do.. but with 3 hours of sleep yesterday and nearly 6 hours of cycling, my eyelids and shutting close even with my commands to them to remain open . But i guess eyelids are only aesthetic, my brain is totally blocked too!! ARGH i need to get my work done! Wake up carmen!!

Tomorrow : KL!!
woo hoo!!

first real emcee-ing experience in ntu

:) so yesterday was the NTU MAF celebrations 2009 of which i was a part of. EMCEE :) i have always wanted to try my hands at emceeing in NTU. So i guess it came. My emcee partner, Jia Wei couldn't be a better person for me to work with. I think we had the chemistry la..

I have no idea how I did as the event kinda rolled into one as the night goes on ( i realised it can be rather tiring to be on the stage constantly for 3 hours plus in HEELS!!) but i had a great time doing it..

so what is up next ??

Some aiesec work, study study study study (x100000000 million thousand gazillion times (positive reinforcement)), some aiesec work, study study study, pulau ubin and then head home!! excited nak balik!