its high time to update

been to frankfurt with awesome aiesecers there and of course big boss reneta, couch surfed in milan with alberto and attended a fashion party, travelled around venice WITHOUT a map, stayed a night in bucharest in a awesome awesome awesome backpackers hostel and had first hand experience to romanian humour, made pancakes for supper with brasov aiesecers, took a cable car up tampa and a cable car down without taking pictures at the peak and walked in the rain to aldos to get a humongous burger with THREE chicken patties.

a random summary of what i have been up to so far..

more random thoughts :
i miss rice! and its so hard to get cooked food in brasov
i miss alberto and his house and his pasta!
its really really cold here
brasov is beautiful with nice aiesecers

cure to homesickness - national planning

nat plan : no time to think about anything else. forget homesickness, i dun even have time to think about europe.
Though magically managed to settle Frankfurt and Milan :)

mmm.. but now typing bout it.. homesickness melanda again :S

Random : had last eb meeting T.T Really eventhough we are not leaving for good or anything like dat, i really felt like crying when we hugged goodbye :S

Haihz .. emo sia these days =.=

homesick

Its been an overwhelmingly emotional after examness to date.

Saying goodbyes to my support system, a journey of self realizations, dealing with something from the past ( ok not so FAR past) and now an emotional trip back home albeit it being only a two days trip.

In these two days, I spent time with my family. And had realizations on how much I love them as well as how lucky I am to have supportive parents who loves me unconditionally. How lucky I am to have siblings who I love and cherish(eventhough they drive me up the wall sometimes). Somehow this trip home made me see the sacrifices and ‘behind the scene’ things my parents do just for the wellbeing of their children. I had emotion evoking conversations with my siblings that made us ending up in tears but I came out feeling really happy.This trip home has made it really difficult for me to leave KL. I swear this time going around familiar places of HOME has made me realize how much I miss home and KL. Its like being homesick when I am in KL which is super weird. Everything here is just so familiar and has its own memories attached to it. It may just be the fact that I have bought something there before. Or that it is the shop that I always eat with my mum after school during form 6. Simple stuff but somehow it touches me this time I am back. Mebbe because I am only back for two days tat makes it super hard to leave. This trip home made me wonder why did I make the decision to leave for Singapore. How could I have made the decision to go away from my loved ones. Why am I spending so much time away from the people I love.

I had one small yum cha session with my high school friends and I bumped into some old friends. It made me think bout my schooling days. How simple things were and how happy I was then. ( Not tat I am not happy now. But things were definitely much much easier and simple) Being around ppl I have known for so long is really comfortable and just easy. I now have a group of ppl that I really enjoy being with and love in Singapore but I guess life in Malaysia is something tat I miss.

As I walk around my house, touching familiar surfaces, sleeping in my own bed, I can’t help but feel really reluctant to head back down south. Its been an emotional trip home. Its back to my life in Singapore but again I just miss my life back in Malaysia. I know I left KL to challenge myself and just push out of my comfort zone but I cant help sometimes but to miss my comfort zone and wishing that I didn’t make the decision to leave.

Lying beside my mum talking bout life and just spending time, holding my dads hands while him leading me across the road protectively has made everything else fade in comparison. Suddenly Europe has lost its appeal. Everything else has lost its meaning. I just want to go home. To be home and to be loved.

Baby-ish I know. I guess its just a serious hit of homesickness. I am betting on myself surviving this. But for now I will just miss home with my every being and deal with it later.

calm

its confirmed and i am good.. whoppie means tat the closest i will get to love is my family, my ntu support system, my eb, my lt and AIESEC.
now just let me figure out how to be a good kick ass lcp :P

nat plan day 2

challenging.
confusing.
devastated for a moment.
heartwarming golden card of support.
heartwarming massage of support.
heartwarming reassurance of support.
heartwarming rescue and facilitation of learning with no judgement.
lots of things to prepare.
many moments of self awareness.
deeper understanding of the organisation.
hopeful.
will survive.
will do good.
will fly.

nat plan day 1

much input.
self realisation.
thankful.
happy.
friendship.
teamwork.
miss eb.
enthusiastic.
challenging.
dead tired.
<3

return of super carmen - moving wardrobes part 2

yessss... successfully moved out again :) second time in my life moving out, packing alone!
proudest moment : carried 5 bags in one go lo :)
I swear the only work out i get is when i shop and when i move out/in of hall..

owhhhsss.. another proud moment : only need two rounds to move everything!!! compared to last year's 3 rounds, I think i have matured in my ability to detach myself from my worldly possessions. I CAN THROW THINGS OUT :D

ahhh today is a proud proud day =.=

realisations

1. When you miss someone enough, you dream of them!
2. When you have shopped enough, long enough, you have the stamina and strength to lug heavy boxes around.
3. A strong muscular pair of arms is very useful when moving.
4. Applications for IC uber loong!

baby i am done done done done

on the plus side (and prob the only for now ) : i am done with exams!

on the negative side : not see ntu support system for FOUR months +.+
: pack pack pack like mad :S (packing my wardrobe is going to be
traumatizing!)
ee wang wang ..ee wang wang..

never enough

I have SIX full days to prepare for calculus 4. With one and a half days left.. i am running out of time. AGAIN! ( history loves repeating itself :S membabikan)

I really need to kill the procrastinator in me. gaah.

i guess its a mad race to the finish... yet again :S

slaaaaaaaaaaaap!

not looking forward to after exams too :S dun wanna move out!!!!
celaka babi tee nyah kueh sial grrrrrr

gosh 4 months!

it dawned on me that i won't be seeing them for FOUR months! That is super long la! ( illustration - add in two more months, you get half a year!)

this summer we will be strewn all over the world. Me in europe, mei, mei cheng, shi yah, sing ming in the states, su yun in singapore, sook yee and kimberly in malaysia, chia li in Taiwan ..
And with a long long long summer I won't be seeing my NTU support system for months (longest 4 months :S)

We all have exciting plans ahead for this summer but truly I am going to miss my galfrens a lot! I guess i have found MY galfrens in NTU ( as mei puts it - finally). Europe is going to be lovely but a little lonely i guess without them ( thank goodness for monic!)

After examness is going to be a rush for everyone preparing to move out and for their summer plans. i am gonna miss the craziness and random giggles we share.
Gosh four months!
I can only say.. thank my lucky stars for facebook , skype and msn!
<3 ntu support system!