restlessness

its a long weekend in singapore cos its singapore's bday. but long weekends just reminds me how much i should be home rather than being in singapore. ahh at this point i need a good dose of healthy HTHT with the girls. Had a great night of talking and sharing with my dear ZQMM yesterday. Definitely worth the shortage of hours of sleep that resulted from the HTHT. Had an aiesec gathering as well which was fun minus the part that i had to leave early just cause we didnt want to miss the train.

Now, I just have this craving to have a HTHT session with my threesome support system. Or being at home on my mums bed just rambling nonsense.Or being in hall 14 with my gf talking random stuff and sharing travelling experience.

i think i just need some kinda excitement to keep me fired up for now. hmm shoppping anyone?

i want things to start again

sometimes i feel like i am walking in a dream after coming back from europe. or sometimes as if i am acting in a dramatic play of life. the only time i feel real is when i am back home with the family.or when i am in the aiesec office.or when i am with my LTs working.
i need to get back to real life. where school starts and my gfs are back(omg come back already!). where recruitment kicks in and real in your face aiesec business starts. or just stay in kl for a loong time with the family. spend time with my ntu friends. or my malaysian friends.or my roommate. or my 09/10 eb. or even with my books. being in familiar surroundings and with the basic essence of my life. simple, straightforward and without drama. where there is no need for second guessing, or guessing in any sense for that matter. no games, no mess and no fuss.
i wish i could turn off this rollercoaster of emotions playing in me but with everything not quite settled and my support system basically just not where i am , it is annoyingly hard to get rid of.

i am heading back to singapore yet again. the prospects of awesomeness for aiesec in ntu and singapore is making this trip back way easier.but still, with my support system either workign or waaay far away, this feeling of being in a dream is bound to hit me again.and a family gathering this sunday in kl is going to be hell to resist.2 more weeks and i will be off to another big event of my life. IC india! yet to feel really excited bout it. i guess the drama i have had this summer is enough to last me a looong time. i guess the only way to get around this now is to think that i am going for IC for my LC. harness resources for us to grow. that should bring out the fire in me.
pls start living already !

the awesomeness of home

can be summarized in one word... awesomenesss!!!

love love love <3

balik kampung!

omg going home tomorrow!! yippeee its been a while i cannot wait.. my tummy rumbles with just the thought of the awesome food back home.. seriously food deprived like mad. good food that is.
i will be home only for a 3 days or so but i guess it has to be enough to quench my thirst for home for now.. faster faster!!!!!!!!!!

spot on

it surprises me sometimes how my instincts are super accurate. call me paranoid, call me cautious, but somehow things that i felt would happen, just happens. it is possible that it happens because i have been anticipating it so much that the whole damn energy attraction thingy made it happen. it is also possible that maybe i am just a damn good judge of character. hopefully this will increase my employability since there are ppl who wants to hire ppl with good instincts (ok random i know :P)

i was wishing i was going to be wrong but i guess its hard to be wrong when you are always right.(super perasan i know)but in a way , by being right, it made my decision way easier.

so cheers to my awesome instincts, may it make me a damn good investor in the future :P

just felt like writing

funny how i never 'just felt like writing' when i was in europe eventhough there was so much to tell..
btw for those who are curious on where we visited in europe, this is the list :
frankfurt
milan
venice
bucharest
brasov
sinaia
pesceana (countryside in romania)
sibiu
rome
barcelona
lyon
paris
antwerp
luxembourg
ghent
rotterdam
amsterdam
back to frankfurt

craziness i had no idea i did so many places until i saw the list.. seriously even if i was paid to do one more week of travelling in europe, i would really consider rejecting and coming back to singapore as scheduled. Damn tiring i tell you travelling wit a humongous backpack and a humongous bag filled with stroopwaffles and souvenirs. ( Lesson learned : regardless of how cool backpacking sounds, trolley bags is the way to go from now onwards! )

back in singapore resuming duties as lcp of aiesec in ntu.. lots of things to do.. but all is good and i am happy :) had a networkign session today with levis and it was fun fun fun.. ( except for the fact that i was sniffling cos of the flu)

random : reading back a post has brought me back to my senses again.. maybe not entirely back to my senses, but close.. mesti ingat self defense itu penting!!!!!!

pemalas antarabangsa

that is me... went a big round around europe and now half way around the world back to where i belong.. (ok technically i dont belong to singapore but i am back in asia babeh. :P) and still no updates about europe whatsoever.

i will do a quick conclusion here.. europe was nice.. many random things happened and very bad transportation karma struck. but i am back in one piece so all is good.. for more stories, just talk to me :P
the apparent difference is definitely the fact that i am super super darker now plus i think i gained some weight from all the bread and mashed potatoes =.= sienness

anyway back in singapore to work work work and am pretty excited about it :) gonna rock aiesec :)

(though i do wanna go back home to where i belong to mummy and home !!!!)