balik kampung!

omg going home tomorrow!! yippeee its been a while i cannot wait.. my tummy rumbles with just the thought of the awesome food back home.. seriously food deprived like mad. good food that is.
i will be home only for a 3 days or so but i guess it has to be enough to quench my thirst for home for now.. faster faster!!!!!!!!!!

spot on

it surprises me sometimes how my instincts are super accurate. call me paranoid, call me cautious, but somehow things that i felt would happen, just happens. it is possible that it happens because i have been anticipating it so much that the whole damn energy attraction thingy made it happen. it is also possible that maybe i am just a damn good judge of character. hopefully this will increase my employability since there are ppl who wants to hire ppl with good instincts (ok random i know :P)

i was wishing i was going to be wrong but i guess its hard to be wrong when you are always right.(super perasan i know)but in a way , by being right, it made my decision way easier.

so cheers to my awesome instincts, may it make me a damn good investor in the future :P

just felt like writing

funny how i never 'just felt like writing' when i was in europe eventhough there was so much to tell..
btw for those who are curious on where we visited in europe, this is the list :
frankfurt
milan
venice
bucharest
brasov
sinaia
pesceana (countryside in romania)
sibiu
rome
barcelona
lyon
paris
antwerp
luxembourg
ghent
rotterdam
amsterdam
back to frankfurt

craziness i had no idea i did so many places until i saw the list.. seriously even if i was paid to do one more week of travelling in europe, i would really consider rejecting and coming back to singapore as scheduled. Damn tiring i tell you travelling wit a humongous backpack and a humongous bag filled with stroopwaffles and souvenirs. ( Lesson learned : regardless of how cool backpacking sounds, trolley bags is the way to go from now onwards! )

back in singapore resuming duties as lcp of aiesec in ntu.. lots of things to do.. but all is good and i am happy :) had a networkign session today with levis and it was fun fun fun.. ( except for the fact that i was sniffling cos of the flu)

random : reading back a post has brought me back to my senses again.. maybe not entirely back to my senses, but close.. mesti ingat self defense itu penting!!!!!!

pemalas antarabangsa

that is me... went a big round around europe and now half way around the world back to where i belong.. (ok technically i dont belong to singapore but i am back in asia babeh. :P) and still no updates about europe whatsoever.

i will do a quick conclusion here.. europe was nice.. many random things happened and very bad transportation karma struck. but i am back in one piece so all is good.. for more stories, just talk to me :P
the apparent difference is definitely the fact that i am super super darker now plus i think i gained some weight from all the bread and mashed potatoes =.= sienness

anyway back in singapore to work work work and am pretty excited about it :) gonna rock aiesec :)

(though i do wanna go back home to where i belong to mummy and home !!!!)

its high time to update

been to frankfurt with awesome aiesecers there and of course big boss reneta, couch surfed in milan with alberto and attended a fashion party, travelled around venice WITHOUT a map, stayed a night in bucharest in a awesome awesome awesome backpackers hostel and had first hand experience to romanian humour, made pancakes for supper with brasov aiesecers, took a cable car up tampa and a cable car down without taking pictures at the peak and walked in the rain to aldos to get a humongous burger with THREE chicken patties.

a random summary of what i have been up to so far..

more random thoughts :
i miss rice! and its so hard to get cooked food in brasov
i miss alberto and his house and his pasta!
its really really cold here
brasov is beautiful with nice aiesecers

cure to homesickness - national planning

nat plan : no time to think about anything else. forget homesickness, i dun even have time to think about europe.
Though magically managed to settle Frankfurt and Milan :)

mmm.. but now typing bout it.. homesickness melanda again :S

Random : had last eb meeting T.T Really eventhough we are not leaving for good or anything like dat, i really felt like crying when we hugged goodbye :S

Haihz .. emo sia these days =.=

homesick

Its been an overwhelmingly emotional after examness to date.

Saying goodbyes to my support system, a journey of self realizations, dealing with something from the past ( ok not so FAR past) and now an emotional trip back home albeit it being only a two days trip.

In these two days, I spent time with my family. And had realizations on how much I love them as well as how lucky I am to have supportive parents who loves me unconditionally. How lucky I am to have siblings who I love and cherish(eventhough they drive me up the wall sometimes). Somehow this trip home made me see the sacrifices and ‘behind the scene’ things my parents do just for the wellbeing of their children. I had emotion evoking conversations with my siblings that made us ending up in tears but I came out feeling really happy.This trip home has made it really difficult for me to leave KL. I swear this time going around familiar places of HOME has made me realize how much I miss home and KL. Its like being homesick when I am in KL which is super weird. Everything here is just so familiar and has its own memories attached to it. It may just be the fact that I have bought something there before. Or that it is the shop that I always eat with my mum after school during form 6. Simple stuff but somehow it touches me this time I am back. Mebbe because I am only back for two days tat makes it super hard to leave. This trip home made me wonder why did I make the decision to leave for Singapore. How could I have made the decision to go away from my loved ones. Why am I spending so much time away from the people I love.

I had one small yum cha session with my high school friends and I bumped into some old friends. It made me think bout my schooling days. How simple things were and how happy I was then. ( Not tat I am not happy now. But things were definitely much much easier and simple) Being around ppl I have known for so long is really comfortable and just easy. I now have a group of ppl that I really enjoy being with and love in Singapore but I guess life in Malaysia is something tat I miss.

As I walk around my house, touching familiar surfaces, sleeping in my own bed, I can’t help but feel really reluctant to head back down south. Its been an emotional trip home. Its back to my life in Singapore but again I just miss my life back in Malaysia. I know I left KL to challenge myself and just push out of my comfort zone but I cant help sometimes but to miss my comfort zone and wishing that I didn’t make the decision to leave.

Lying beside my mum talking bout life and just spending time, holding my dads hands while him leading me across the road protectively has made everything else fade in comparison. Suddenly Europe has lost its appeal. Everything else has lost its meaning. I just want to go home. To be home and to be loved.

Baby-ish I know. I guess its just a serious hit of homesickness. I am betting on myself surviving this. But for now I will just miss home with my every being and deal with it later.