wah i really think i am taking exams much better this sem. i just realised i didnt come here to complain at all about the shitty 'E's this sem. So for tradition sake. This is the post where i complain about exams LOL.
All my papers have been pretty shitty so far starting from day one to the paper yesterday ( esp the paper yesterday). Came out wanting to cry and scream in frustration (though i went to get a mac d set instead =.=) Had another small series of misfortunes. Though all was good and compensated for when i received a pretty awesome email. ( I think i need to fix how I am so easily affected by external factors like exams and good news =.=)
Anyhoo, in two days one last one and I am free from educational ties for a month. Gosh i have so many things i wanna do. May it be leisure or @ related!!
Its coming..and i cannot wait.
Till then, back to money making module!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
of ups and downs
Was down with exams blues
But was raised up by good times with friends from all over the world
Was higher up when i saw signs of hope and possibilities of awesomeness for something i really care about
Then was brought down again by emotional woes
But brought up by words of reassurance and mini HTHT with foursome
Then brought down by the numbers confusing
Then brought up by the fact that I can sleep and will be seeing foursome + one tomorrow.
Ah walking in my shoes will definitely give you a rollercoaster ride. Anyone wants to swap lifes for a day?
But was raised up by good times with friends from all over the world
Was higher up when i saw signs of hope and possibilities of awesomeness for something i really care about
Then was brought down again by emotional woes
But brought up by words of reassurance and mini HTHT with foursome
Then brought down by the numbers confusing
Then brought up by the fact that I can sleep and will be seeing foursome + one tomorrow.
Ah walking in my shoes will definitely give you a rollercoaster ride. Anyone wants to swap lifes for a day?
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
the lesson behind the lessons
its no secret that me and many other of my friends think that i am in the wrong course. I guess i am just not turned on by numbers and the maths is really diluting the econs out of my degree. I have very little interest in what I am studying as my 5 semesters to date in uni has been very mathematically focused and I find myself getting lost in all the proofs and theorems and whatnots.
(disclaimer : i DO enjoy the econs modules i have done so far minus the mathematically related econs modules)
(disclaimer : numbers used to turn me on when it was all about application and getting the right answer gives me a sense of achievement)
The previous 2 semesters have been even bigger of a challenge and of little interest to the non mathematical me as i have lesser 'real' econs modules while being bombarded with heavy mathematical econs and maths modules. ( 3 killer math related modules this sem tqvm). I find myself getting more and more disengaged from my modules, just studying for the sake of it (its like downing medicine just because the doctor told me to eventhough i am not sick).
The thought always screaming in my head is basically - WAH i don't like! =.= why am i doing this again? ( can be unbearable sometimes)
ANYWAY a conversation with Lucas recently got me thinking. Why am I so not interested in what i am studying?
The thought provoking statement he said - It just depends on whether you WANT to learn it or not
The ever arrogant me instantaneously answered - I am not learning anything. I am just swallowing facts and spitting it out.
But upon some reflection, I realised its possible it is because i turned off my willingness to learn. ( though its also possible i just don't enjoy learning the traditional ' swallow and vomit ' way). I always pride myself (by putting it in cover letters )that I am ever ready to learn and I am open to anything as I consider it a learning experience. BUT my attitude to my 'learning' in its literal-lest( ok this word doesnt exist) form doesn't reflect what I take pride in.
Its true that I am VERY possibly not going to go into a career that will be closely related to all the mathematical stuff i am doing now, hence the information I take in from my modules are really not very useful. ( I forget 70% of them right upon submission of my test paper anyway).
BUT, the lesson behind all these lessons goes deeper than just being able to regurgitate facts. It is about the process of learning and competencies gained that truly counts. Discipline and resilience are only a few of the things one gains from completing a degree.
I HAVE TO KEEP THIS IN MIND.
When completing my degree, I can add another example of my resilience in my interviews.
COMPLETING A RELATIVELY HARD DEGREE ( its freaking mathematics and economics. it IS hard!) THAT I HAVE VERY LITTLE INTEREST IN WITH RELATIVELY GOOD RESULTS
ok back to learning.
( on a off note , I think I have found my dream/ultimate job in my dream company :P it feels good to have some direction in my future)
(disclaimer : i DO enjoy the econs modules i have done so far minus the mathematically related econs modules)
(disclaimer : numbers used to turn me on when it was all about application and getting the right answer gives me a sense of achievement)
The previous 2 semesters have been even bigger of a challenge and of little interest to the non mathematical me as i have lesser 'real' econs modules while being bombarded with heavy mathematical econs and maths modules. ( 3 killer math related modules this sem tqvm). I find myself getting more and more disengaged from my modules, just studying for the sake of it (its like downing medicine just because the doctor told me to eventhough i am not sick).
The thought always screaming in my head is basically - WAH i don't like! =.= why am i doing this again? ( can be unbearable sometimes)
ANYWAY a conversation with Lucas recently got me thinking. Why am I so not interested in what i am studying?
The thought provoking statement he said - It just depends on whether you WANT to learn it or not
The ever arrogant me instantaneously answered - I am not learning anything. I am just swallowing facts and spitting it out.
But upon some reflection, I realised its possible it is because i turned off my willingness to learn. ( though its also possible i just don't enjoy learning the traditional ' swallow and vomit ' way). I always pride myself (by putting it in cover letters )that I am ever ready to learn and I am open to anything as I consider it a learning experience. BUT my attitude to my 'learning' in its literal-lest( ok this word doesnt exist) form doesn't reflect what I take pride in.
Its true that I am VERY possibly not going to go into a career that will be closely related to all the mathematical stuff i am doing now, hence the information I take in from my modules are really not very useful. ( I forget 70% of them right upon submission of my test paper anyway).
BUT, the lesson behind all these lessons goes deeper than just being able to regurgitate facts. It is about the process of learning and competencies gained that truly counts. Discipline and resilience are only a few of the things one gains from completing a degree.
I HAVE TO KEEP THIS IN MIND.
When completing my degree, I can add another example of my resilience in my interviews.
COMPLETING A RELATIVELY HARD DEGREE ( its freaking mathematics and economics. it IS hard!) THAT I HAVE VERY LITTLE INTEREST IN WITH RELATIVELY GOOD RESULTS
ok back to learning.
( on a off note , I think I have found my dream/ultimate job in my dream company :P it feels good to have some direction in my future)
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
of improvement and tranquility
i think that i have improved in various aspects of my life may it be professionally or personally. and i am not going to grudge myself the well deserved pat on my back. so hooray :)
besides that, i think i am pretty at peace with myself. no more turbulent emotions, no more being confused. Things are pretty crystal clear on my side and its a good feeling plus i am finally able to spend some much needed time with my girlfrens.
On a random note, i am super super addicted to sweet potatoes and sweet corn making me feel like a farmer lol.
I do have one thing on my mind that needs instant attention though.. should i skip gala dinner and how do i get my ass back to kl on the 10th to fly to Thailand! gahhh i hate it when things clashes =.=
not sure how long this sense of tranquility of mine will last seeing tat the dreaded exams are coming real soon. but i am definitely gonna try to prolong it for as long as i can.
PS : christmas is in singapore already! damn fast! talking about efficiency =.=
besides that, i think i am pretty at peace with myself. no more turbulent emotions, no more being confused. Things are pretty crystal clear on my side and its a good feeling plus i am finally able to spend some much needed time with my girlfrens.
On a random note, i am super super addicted to sweet potatoes and sweet corn making me feel like a farmer lol.
I do have one thing on my mind that needs instant attention though.. should i skip gala dinner and how do i get my ass back to kl on the 10th to fly to Thailand! gahhh i hate it when things clashes =.=
not sure how long this sense of tranquility of mine will last seeing tat the dreaded exams are coming real soon. but i am definitely gonna try to prolong it for as long as i can.
PS : christmas is in singapore already! damn fast! talking about efficiency =.=
Monday, November 8, 2010
being tested sucks
i.hate.exams T.T
and as luck will have it, i have been and will be tested for close to three weeks already :(
this sem academically is really a horrifying one with 3 killer subjects, countless projects, one languange and the oh so mafan entrepeneurship module...
thank goodness for small rewards ( THAILAND!! :D)
i am actually looking forward to the end of this sem ( read exams) as it will bring thailand and home CLOSER!
( ok thinking bout all the shopping i will be doing is making me smile.. good enough to make me go back to my books. )
and as luck will have it, i have been and will be tested for close to three weeks already :(
this sem academically is really a horrifying one with 3 killer subjects, countless projects, one languange and the oh so mafan entrepeneurship module...
thank goodness for small rewards ( THAILAND!! :D)
i am actually looking forward to the end of this sem ( read exams) as it will bring thailand and home CLOSER!
( ok thinking bout all the shopping i will be doing is making me smile.. good enough to make me go back to my books. )
Thursday, October 28, 2010
to decide. to let go. to move on
Life is full of options.
And being someone who generally takes a longer time to make a decision despite knowing very well what is good for me, and what i want deep inside, its always a very interesting process for me to finally make a decision that finally binds.
Having two big decisions always playing in my mind that I know very well i need to make, i have finally came to my 'senses' and decided on what i want to do. As decisions go, once you make one, there is a huge trade off to it forfeiting everything else the other option offers.
So what comes next will be to let go. To let go of the other option and everything that is associated to it may it be good or bad. All the things that may tempt you or pull you towards that other option.
Then it will be time to move on by committing to your decision and to never look back ( as tempting as it is - especially to me)
It feels good to have made the two major decisions i have made. However the next two steps are as crucial as the first. It will be interesting to see if i will ace the other two steps as well.
Wish me luck!
And being someone who generally takes a longer time to make a decision despite knowing very well what is good for me, and what i want deep inside, its always a very interesting process for me to finally make a decision that finally binds.
Having two big decisions always playing in my mind that I know very well i need to make, i have finally came to my 'senses' and decided on what i want to do. As decisions go, once you make one, there is a huge trade off to it forfeiting everything else the other option offers.
So what comes next will be to let go. To let go of the other option and everything that is associated to it may it be good or bad. All the things that may tempt you or pull you towards that other option.
Then it will be time to move on by committing to your decision and to never look back ( as tempting as it is - especially to me)
It feels good to have made the two major decisions i have made. However the next two steps are as crucial as the first. It will be interesting to see if i will ace the other two steps as well.
Wish me luck!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
HONG KONG-ness :)
Just returned from HK!
All in all an awesome trip. Definitely the exact thing i need to recharge for the following 2 months or so before the next hols :) ( Bangkok with the girls wooots !!)
Eventhough it was my first time ever in HK but it felt so familiar. Prob due to the cantonese and ALL the TVB dramas i have watched prior to my trip. Prob felt more at home in HK than in Singapore. I guess i am super sure now that HK is one place that I would like to experience living in. It has the beauty of opportunities that Singapore has but at the same time the wonder of random living that Malaysia has. Perfect combination i would have to say.
Another reason why HK was so awesome for me is definitely the people! Felt so pampered by all the 'babysitting and nanny-ing' that was done. After having to have so many responsibilities on my shoulders in Singapore, being in HK where the only thing i had to do was following people around and enjoying the city in its awesomeness makes it a relaxing and enjoyable trip.
Meeting again ppl from APXLDS in Taiwan and IC in India is truly another highlight of my trip especially my darling Coey <3 My first meal in HK was with the whole EB of AIESEC Poly U and i feel so at home:) I guess AIESEC everywhere gives me a sense of home.always.
However as much as i love HK, when i was finally back on the flight back to Singapore, it felt pretty good heading back 'home' where my life is now. Its good coming back to my EB, my LT, my foursome, AIESEC Singapore and of course my girlfriends. And I ALWAYS feel that way whenever i am flying back INTO Singapore may it be from Europe, Taiwan or India. I guess despite my complains, I do feel like Singapore is my 'home' for now. I have no idea how long i will stay and where my future will bring me but for now, its good being 'home'.
All in all an awesome trip. Definitely the exact thing i need to recharge for the following 2 months or so before the next hols :) ( Bangkok with the girls wooots !!)
Eventhough it was my first time ever in HK but it felt so familiar. Prob due to the cantonese and ALL the TVB dramas i have watched prior to my trip. Prob felt more at home in HK than in Singapore. I guess i am super sure now that HK is one place that I would like to experience living in. It has the beauty of opportunities that Singapore has but at the same time the wonder of random living that Malaysia has. Perfect combination i would have to say.
Another reason why HK was so awesome for me is definitely the people! Felt so pampered by all the 'babysitting and nanny-ing' that was done. After having to have so many responsibilities on my shoulders in Singapore, being in HK where the only thing i had to do was following people around and enjoying the city in its awesomeness makes it a relaxing and enjoyable trip.
Meeting again ppl from APXLDS in Taiwan and IC in India is truly another highlight of my trip especially my darling Coey <3 My first meal in HK was with the whole EB of AIESEC Poly U and i feel so at home:) I guess AIESEC everywhere gives me a sense of home.always.
However as much as i love HK, when i was finally back on the flight back to Singapore, it felt pretty good heading back 'home' where my life is now. Its good coming back to my EB, my LT, my foursome, AIESEC Singapore and of course my girlfriends. And I ALWAYS feel that way whenever i am flying back INTO Singapore may it be from Europe, Taiwan or India. I guess despite my complains, I do feel like Singapore is my 'home' for now. I have no idea how long i will stay and where my future will bring me but for now, its good being 'home'.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
starry eyed
Its been a rough patch recently. But its important to overcome and push forward. Thanks to the awesome people around me plus the support, may it be outright direct or invisible (though i can feel its presence) I am again fired up to go go go.
I can only remain in my negative state for so long before it starts to eat me up. Must always remember that for things to happen, its up to me. It is always up to me whether i want to make something out of a dreary situation or to just wallow in self pity not heading anywhere.
Ups AND downs is just part and parcel of life and my own decisions. Like it or not, nothing remains all sweet and nice forever. The downs just spices up the experience and gives room for self reflection, realisation and learning. Harvest all those and turn it positive :)
FIRED UP :) I am all starry eyed again and let this be a lesson to self that by being 'dull eyed' i dull everything around me seeing only the bad. By being all starry eyed, i see the stars in the darkest nights :) (this analogy is as complicated as can be - but stemming from someone so random, its expected i guess)
I can only remain in my negative state for so long before it starts to eat me up. Must always remember that for things to happen, its up to me. It is always up to me whether i want to make something out of a dreary situation or to just wallow in self pity not heading anywhere.
Ups AND downs is just part and parcel of life and my own decisions. Like it or not, nothing remains all sweet and nice forever. The downs just spices up the experience and gives room for self reflection, realisation and learning. Harvest all those and turn it positive :)
FIRED UP :) I am all starry eyed again and let this be a lesson to self that by being 'dull eyed' i dull everything around me seeing only the bad. By being all starry eyed, i see the stars in the darkest nights :) (this analogy is as complicated as can be - but stemming from someone so random, its expected i guess)
Monday, October 4, 2010
stop blog lost - losing faith
so many things happening, so many things to do, so many challenges, so much shit to face.
321, spanish, 301, 311, 209, 815 (=.= huge waste of time tqvm) , human relations, feelings , work, internships, cruel ( i mean it literally) quizzes, hardcore school, hardcore work
i am drowning with no life jacket in sight. getting lost in the sea of to dos, and challenges that come at the WRONG time.
i need a support system but i dun feel like talking, rather fading into nothing.
i need some light. i need inspiration. i need motivation. i need to be less jaded.
i need to be able to breathe
or i will drown in this turbulent sea i call my life.
321, spanish, 301, 311, 209, 815 (=.= huge waste of time tqvm) , human relations, feelings , work, internships, cruel ( i mean it literally) quizzes, hardcore school, hardcore work
i am drowning with no life jacket in sight. getting lost in the sea of to dos, and challenges that come at the WRONG time.
i need a support system but i dun feel like talking, rather fading into nothing.
i need some light. i need inspiration. i need motivation. i need to be less jaded.
i need to be able to breathe
or i will drown in this turbulent sea i call my life.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
all is good and well in singaland
well not exactly ALL is good. but for now it is. We matched one TN, we raised one TN , we completed recruitment and I had a pretty awesome meeting with Prof Hooi coming out with lots of awesome opportunities we can tap on :)
School is still crazily 'i have no idea what the lecturer is talking bout' but i have faith i will decipher all those stuff somehow somewhere before the exams.
Its been an intense 3 weeks of school and all my gfs (plus me) are worked to the max. We really do need our own time off to chill and relax in order to move on 'gungho-ily' for the next weeks to come. I cannot wait for that unscheduled day to come T.T but again looking at our randomness, i am sure the day will come , someday somehow, hopefully BEFORE exams.
Time moves too fast ! it seems like just yesterday I was in Europe, or India, or shopping (:P) Somehow the transition from summer hols to school isn't that drastic this time though I have no idea why. Maybe its just my internal being pushing through life till the hols come again. December, I am coming!
School is still crazily 'i have no idea what the lecturer is talking bout' but i have faith i will decipher all those stuff somehow somewhere before the exams.
Its been an intense 3 weeks of school and all my gfs (plus me) are worked to the max. We really do need our own time off to chill and relax in order to move on 'gungho-ily' for the next weeks to come. I cannot wait for that unscheduled day to come T.T but again looking at our randomness, i am sure the day will come , someday somehow, hopefully BEFORE exams.
Time moves too fast ! it seems like just yesterday I was in Europe, or India, or shopping (:P) Somehow the transition from summer hols to school isn't that drastic this time though I have no idea why. Maybe its just my internal being pushing through life till the hols come again. December, I am coming!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
just come back in one piece
early morning at 4am
should be sleeping
wide awake with worry
reading the economist
to lull myself to sleep
not working
could be studying
cannot concentrate
please come back in one piece
nothing matters
but that
please
should be sleeping
wide awake with worry
reading the economist
to lull myself to sleep
not working
could be studying
cannot concentrate
please come back in one piece
nothing matters
but that
please
Sunday, September 5, 2010
disoriented
i just got back from India for AIESEC's International Congress 2010. Its been a rollercoaster-ish journey with intense emotions and deep thoughts involved. At the same time, it was great fun and warmth spending time with the Singapore delegation.
but now back in singapore i feel a little disoriented with school having started and me not moved into my room yet. thank god for the beauty of my ntu support system as well as my awesome eb!
owh though good news do come with the fact that i am going to live with my old roomate again which is awesome pawsome.
i do know wat i need at this point of time which is some order in my life. and its gonna come starting with me moving into my awesome room with my awesome roommate!
but now back in singapore i feel a little disoriented with school having started and me not moved into my room yet. thank god for the beauty of my ntu support system as well as my awesome eb!
owh though good news do come with the fact that i am going to live with my old roomate again which is awesome pawsome.
i do know wat i need at this point of time which is some order in my life. and its gonna come starting with me moving into my awesome room with my awesome roommate!
Sunday, August 8, 2010
restlessness
its a long weekend in singapore cos its singapore's bday. but long weekends just reminds me how much i should be home rather than being in singapore. ahh at this point i need a good dose of healthy HTHT with the girls. Had a great night of talking and sharing with my dear ZQMM yesterday. Definitely worth the shortage of hours of sleep that resulted from the HTHT. Had an aiesec gathering as well which was fun minus the part that i had to leave early just cause we didnt want to miss the train.
Now, I just have this craving to have a HTHT session with my threesome support system. Or being at home on my mums bed just rambling nonsense.Or being in hall 14 with my gf talking random stuff and sharing travelling experience.
i think i just need some kinda excitement to keep me fired up for now. hmm shoppping anyone?
Now, I just have this craving to have a HTHT session with my threesome support system. Or being at home on my mums bed just rambling nonsense.Or being in hall 14 with my gf talking random stuff and sharing travelling experience.
i think i just need some kinda excitement to keep me fired up for now. hmm shoppping anyone?
Monday, August 2, 2010
i want things to start again
sometimes i feel like i am walking in a dream after coming back from europe. or sometimes as if i am acting in a dramatic play of life. the only time i feel real is when i am back home with the family.or when i am in the aiesec office.or when i am with my LTs working.
i need to get back to real life. where school starts and my gfs are back(omg come back already!). where recruitment kicks in and real in your face aiesec business starts. or just stay in kl for a loong time with the family. spend time with my ntu friends. or my malaysian friends.or my roommate. or my 09/10 eb. or even with my books. being in familiar surroundings and with the basic essence of my life. simple, straightforward and without drama. where there is no need for second guessing, or guessing in any sense for that matter. no games, no mess and no fuss.
i wish i could turn off this rollercoaster of emotions playing in me but with everything not quite settled and my support system basically just not where i am , it is annoyingly hard to get rid of.
i am heading back to singapore yet again. the prospects of awesomeness for aiesec in ntu and singapore is making this trip back way easier.but still, with my support system either workign or waaay far away, this feeling of being in a dream is bound to hit me again.and a family gathering this sunday in kl is going to be hell to resist.2 more weeks and i will be off to another big event of my life. IC india! yet to feel really excited bout it. i guess the drama i have had this summer is enough to last me a looong time. i guess the only way to get around this now is to think that i am going for IC for my LC. harness resources for us to grow. that should bring out the fire in me.
pls start living already !
i need to get back to real life. where school starts and my gfs are back(omg come back already!). where recruitment kicks in and real in your face aiesec business starts. or just stay in kl for a loong time with the family. spend time with my ntu friends. or my malaysian friends.or my roommate. or my 09/10 eb. or even with my books. being in familiar surroundings and with the basic essence of my life. simple, straightforward and without drama. where there is no need for second guessing, or guessing in any sense for that matter. no games, no mess and no fuss.
i wish i could turn off this rollercoaster of emotions playing in me but with everything not quite settled and my support system basically just not where i am , it is annoyingly hard to get rid of.
i am heading back to singapore yet again. the prospects of awesomeness for aiesec in ntu and singapore is making this trip back way easier.but still, with my support system either workign or waaay far away, this feeling of being in a dream is bound to hit me again.and a family gathering this sunday in kl is going to be hell to resist.2 more weeks and i will be off to another big event of my life. IC india! yet to feel really excited bout it. i guess the drama i have had this summer is enough to last me a looong time. i guess the only way to get around this now is to think that i am going for IC for my LC. harness resources for us to grow. that should bring out the fire in me.
pls start living already !
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
balik kampung!
omg going home tomorrow!! yippeee its been a while i cannot wait.. my tummy rumbles with just the thought of the awesome food back home.. seriously food deprived like mad. good food that is.
i will be home only for a 3 days or so but i guess it has to be enough to quench my thirst for home for now.. faster faster!!!!!!!!!!
i will be home only for a 3 days or so but i guess it has to be enough to quench my thirst for home for now.. faster faster!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
spot on
it surprises me sometimes how my instincts are super accurate. call me paranoid, call me cautious, but somehow things that i felt would happen, just happens. it is possible that it happens because i have been anticipating it so much that the whole damn energy attraction thingy made it happen. it is also possible that maybe i am just a damn good judge of character. hopefully this will increase my employability since there are ppl who wants to hire ppl with good instincts (ok random i know :P)
i was wishing i was going to be wrong but i guess its hard to be wrong when you are always right.(super perasan i know)but in a way , by being right, it made my decision way easier.
so cheers to my awesome instincts, may it make me a damn good investor in the future :P
i was wishing i was going to be wrong but i guess its hard to be wrong when you are always right.(super perasan i know)but in a way , by being right, it made my decision way easier.
so cheers to my awesome instincts, may it make me a damn good investor in the future :P
just felt like writing
funny how i never 'just felt like writing' when i was in europe eventhough there was so much to tell..
btw for those who are curious on where we visited in europe, this is the list :
frankfurt
milan
venice
bucharest
brasov
sinaia
pesceana (countryside in romania)
sibiu
rome
barcelona
lyon
paris
antwerp
luxembourg
ghent
rotterdam
amsterdam
back to frankfurt
craziness i had no idea i did so many places until i saw the list.. seriously even if i was paid to do one more week of travelling in europe, i would really consider rejecting and coming back to singapore as scheduled. Damn tiring i tell you travelling wit a humongous backpack and a humongous bag filled with stroopwaffles and souvenirs. ( Lesson learned : regardless of how cool backpacking sounds, trolley bags is the way to go from now onwards! )
back in singapore resuming duties as lcp of aiesec in ntu.. lots of things to do.. but all is good and i am happy :) had a networkign session today with levis and it was fun fun fun.. ( except for the fact that i was sniffling cos of the flu)
random : reading back a post has brought me back to my senses again.. maybe not entirely back to my senses, but close.. mesti ingat self defense itu penting!!!!!!
btw for those who are curious on where we visited in europe, this is the list :
frankfurt
milan
venice
bucharest
brasov
sinaia
pesceana (countryside in romania)
sibiu
rome
barcelona
lyon
paris
antwerp
luxembourg
ghent
rotterdam
amsterdam
back to frankfurt
craziness i had no idea i did so many places until i saw the list.. seriously even if i was paid to do one more week of travelling in europe, i would really consider rejecting and coming back to singapore as scheduled. Damn tiring i tell you travelling wit a humongous backpack and a humongous bag filled with stroopwaffles and souvenirs. ( Lesson learned : regardless of how cool backpacking sounds, trolley bags is the way to go from now onwards! )
back in singapore resuming duties as lcp of aiesec in ntu.. lots of things to do.. but all is good and i am happy :) had a networkign session today with levis and it was fun fun fun.. ( except for the fact that i was sniffling cos of the flu)
random : reading back a post has brought me back to my senses again.. maybe not entirely back to my senses, but close.. mesti ingat self defense itu penting!!!!!!
Monday, July 26, 2010
pemalas antarabangsa
that is me... went a big round around europe and now half way around the world back to where i belong.. (ok technically i dont belong to singapore but i am back in asia babeh. :P) and still no updates about europe whatsoever.
i will do a quick conclusion here.. europe was nice.. many random things happened and very bad transportation karma struck. but i am back in one piece so all is good.. for more stories, just talk to me :P
the apparent difference is definitely the fact that i am super super darker now plus i think i gained some weight from all the bread and mashed potatoes =.= sienness
anyway back in singapore to work work work and am pretty excited about it :) gonna rock aiesec :)
(though i do wanna go back home to where i belong to mummy and home !!!!)
i will do a quick conclusion here.. europe was nice.. many random things happened and very bad transportation karma struck. but i am back in one piece so all is good.. for more stories, just talk to me :P
the apparent difference is definitely the fact that i am super super darker now plus i think i gained some weight from all the bread and mashed potatoes =.= sienness
anyway back in singapore to work work work and am pretty excited about it :) gonna rock aiesec :)
(though i do wanna go back home to where i belong to mummy and home !!!!)
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
its high time to update
been to frankfurt with awesome aiesecers there and of course big boss reneta, couch surfed in milan with alberto and attended a fashion party, travelled around venice WITHOUT a map, stayed a night in bucharest in a awesome awesome awesome backpackers hostel and had first hand experience to romanian humour, made pancakes for supper with brasov aiesecers, took a cable car up tampa and a cable car down without taking pictures at the peak and walked in the rain to aldos to get a humongous burger with THREE chicken patties.
a random summary of what i have been up to so far..
more random thoughts :
i miss rice! and its so hard to get cooked food in brasov
i miss alberto and his house and his pasta!
its really really cold here
brasov is beautiful with nice aiesecers
a random summary of what i have been up to so far..
more random thoughts :
i miss rice! and its so hard to get cooked food in brasov
i miss alberto and his house and his pasta!
its really really cold here
brasov is beautiful with nice aiesecers
Saturday, May 15, 2010
cure to homesickness - national planning
nat plan : no time to think about anything else. forget homesickness, i dun even have time to think about europe.
Though magically managed to settle Frankfurt and Milan :)
mmm.. but now typing bout it.. homesickness melanda again :S
Random : had last eb meeting T.T Really eventhough we are not leaving for good or anything like dat, i really felt like crying when we hugged goodbye :S
Haihz .. emo sia these days =.=
Though magically managed to settle Frankfurt and Milan :)
mmm.. but now typing bout it.. homesickness melanda again :S
Random : had last eb meeting T.T Really eventhough we are not leaving for good or anything like dat, i really felt like crying when we hugged goodbye :S
Haihz .. emo sia these days =.=
Thursday, May 13, 2010
homesick
Its been an overwhelmingly emotional after examness to date.
Saying goodbyes to my support system, a journey of self realizations, dealing with something from the past ( ok not so FAR past) and now an emotional trip back home albeit it being only a two days trip.
In these two days, I spent time with my family. And had realizations on how much I love them as well as how lucky I am to have supportive parents who loves me unconditionally. How lucky I am to have siblings who I love and cherish(eventhough they drive me up the wall sometimes). Somehow this trip home made me see the sacrifices and ‘behind the scene’ things my parents do just for the wellbeing of their children. I had emotion evoking conversations with my siblings that made us ending up in tears but I came out feeling really happy.This trip home has made it really difficult for me to leave KL. I swear this time going around familiar places of HOME has made me realize how much I miss home and KL. Its like being homesick when I am in KL which is super weird. Everything here is just so familiar and has its own memories attached to it. It may just be the fact that I have bought something there before. Or that it is the shop that I always eat with my mum after school during form 6. Simple stuff but somehow it touches me this time I am back. Mebbe because I am only back for two days tat makes it super hard to leave. This trip home made me wonder why did I make the decision to leave for Singapore. How could I have made the decision to go away from my loved ones. Why am I spending so much time away from the people I love.
I had one small yum cha session with my high school friends and I bumped into some old friends. It made me think bout my schooling days. How simple things were and how happy I was then. ( Not tat I am not happy now. But things were definitely much much easier and simple) Being around ppl I have known for so long is really comfortable and just easy. I now have a group of ppl that I really enjoy being with and love in Singapore but I guess life in Malaysia is something tat I miss.
As I walk around my house, touching familiar surfaces, sleeping in my own bed, I can’t help but feel really reluctant to head back down south. Its been an emotional trip home. Its back to my life in Singapore but again I just miss my life back in Malaysia. I know I left KL to challenge myself and just push out of my comfort zone but I cant help sometimes but to miss my comfort zone and wishing that I didn’t make the decision to leave.
Lying beside my mum talking bout life and just spending time, holding my dads hands while him leading me across the road protectively has made everything else fade in comparison. Suddenly Europe has lost its appeal. Everything else has lost its meaning. I just want to go home. To be home and to be loved.
Baby-ish I know. I guess its just a serious hit of homesickness. I am betting on myself surviving this. But for now I will just miss home with my every being and deal with it later.
Monday, May 10, 2010
calm
its confirmed and i am good.. whoppie means tat the closest i will get to love is my family, my ntu support system, my eb, my lt and AIESEC.
now just let me figure out how to be a good kick ass lcp :P
now just let me figure out how to be a good kick ass lcp :P
nat plan day 2
challenging.
confusing.
devastated for a moment.
heartwarming golden card of support.
heartwarming massage of support.
heartwarming reassurance of support.
heartwarming rescue and facilitation of learning with no judgement.
lots of things to prepare.
many moments of self awareness.
deeper understanding of the organisation.
hopeful.
will survive.
will do good.
will fly.
confusing.
devastated for a moment.
heartwarming golden card of support.
heartwarming massage of support.
heartwarming reassurance of support.
heartwarming rescue and facilitation of learning with no judgement.
lots of things to prepare.
many moments of self awareness.
deeper understanding of the organisation.
hopeful.
will survive.
will do good.
will fly.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
nat plan day 1
much input.
self realisation.
thankful.
happy.
friendship.
teamwork.
miss eb.
enthusiastic.
challenging.
dead tired.
<3
self realisation.
thankful.
happy.
friendship.
teamwork.
miss eb.
enthusiastic.
challenging.
dead tired.
<3
Friday, May 7, 2010
return of super carmen - moving wardrobes part 2
yessss... successfully moved out again :) second time in my life moving out, packing alone!
proudest moment : carried 5 bags in one go lo :)
I swear the only work out i get is when i shop and when i move out/in of hall..
owhhhsss.. another proud moment : only need two rounds to move everything!!! compared to last year's 3 rounds, I think i have matured in my ability to detach myself from my worldly possessions. I CAN THROW THINGS OUT :D
ahhh today is a proud proud day =.=
proudest moment : carried 5 bags in one go lo :)
I swear the only work out i get is when i shop and when i move out/in of hall..
owhhhsss.. another proud moment : only need two rounds to move everything!!! compared to last year's 3 rounds, I think i have matured in my ability to detach myself from my worldly possessions. I CAN THROW THINGS OUT :D
ahhh today is a proud proud day =.=
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
realisations
1. When you miss someone enough, you dream of them!
2. When you have shopped enough, long enough, you have the stamina and strength to lug heavy boxes around.
3. A strong muscular pair of arms is very useful when moving.
4. Applications for IC uber loong!
2. When you have shopped enough, long enough, you have the stamina and strength to lug heavy boxes around.
3. A strong muscular pair of arms is very useful when moving.
4. Applications for IC uber loong!
baby i am done done done done
on the plus side (and prob the only for now ) : i am done with exams!
on the negative side : not see ntu support system for FOUR months +.+
: pack pack pack like mad :S (packing my wardrobe is going to be
traumatizing!)
ee wang wang ..ee wang wang..
on the negative side : not see ntu support system for FOUR months +.+
: pack pack pack like mad :S (packing my wardrobe is going to be
traumatizing!)
ee wang wang ..ee wang wang..
Sunday, May 2, 2010
never enough
I have SIX full days to prepare for calculus 4. With one and a half days left.. i am running out of time. AGAIN! ( history loves repeating itself :S membabikan)
I really need to kill the procrastinator in me. gaah.
i guess its a mad race to the finish... yet again :S
slaaaaaaaaaaaap!
not looking forward to after exams too :S dun wanna move out!!!!
celaka babi tee nyah kueh sial grrrrrr
I really need to kill the procrastinator in me. gaah.
i guess its a mad race to the finish... yet again :S
slaaaaaaaaaaaap!
not looking forward to after exams too :S dun wanna move out!!!!
celaka babi tee nyah kueh sial grrrrrr
Saturday, May 1, 2010
gosh 4 months!
it dawned on me that i won't be seeing them for FOUR months! That is super long la! ( illustration - add in two more months, you get half a year!)
this summer we will be strewn all over the world. Me in europe, mei, mei cheng, shi yah, sing ming in the states, su yun in singapore, sook yee and kimberly in malaysia, chia li in Taiwan ..
And with a long long long summer I won't be seeing my NTU support system for months (longest 4 months :S)
We all have exciting plans ahead for this summer but truly I am going to miss my galfrens a lot! I guess i have found MY galfrens in NTU ( as mei puts it - finally). Europe is going to be lovely but a little lonely i guess without them ( thank goodness for monic!)
After examness is going to be a rush for everyone preparing to move out and for their summer plans. i am gonna miss the craziness and random giggles we share.
Gosh four months!
I can only say.. thank my lucky stars for facebook , skype and msn!
<3 ntu support system!
this summer we will be strewn all over the world. Me in europe, mei, mei cheng, shi yah, sing ming in the states, su yun in singapore, sook yee and kimberly in malaysia, chia li in Taiwan ..
And with a long long long summer I won't be seeing my NTU support system for months (longest 4 months :S)
We all have exciting plans ahead for this summer but truly I am going to miss my galfrens a lot! I guess i have found MY galfrens in NTU ( as mei puts it - finally). Europe is going to be lovely but a little lonely i guess without them ( thank goodness for monic!)
After examness is going to be a rush for everyone preparing to move out and for their summer plans. i am gonna miss the craziness and random giggles we share.
Gosh four months!
I can only say.. thank my lucky stars for facebook , skype and msn!
<3 ntu support system!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
awesome garlicky day
9-11.30 am : econometrics paper
11.30 onwards : fun in the purest awesomest form :)
went to watch ice kacang puppy love with my galfrens. and it was really good. made me miss malaysia so much as everything was relatable. the movie used old money, old policeman outfits and old everything :)(really showed the effort put in to create that atmosphere)
the movie was funny but at the same time touching (yours truly actually teared during the movie!)
Really something all studying abroad should go watch just to miss home. :P
(favourite character : fish leong as barli-pin :D)
Then we went shopping. Shopping for food that is. One rule for the day. Just grab anything you have been craving from to eat for a very loong time ( home cooked food tat is). With that,you get an array of random ingredients giving experienced cooks a headache wat this bunch of gals are trying to do. (i got my corn :D:D:D)
So we went back to cook.. and everything we touch has a HUGE tint of garlics in it - just because we bought a whole pack and didnt want to waste too much.
The results were awesomeness :) very eattable everything! (we definitely made our mummies proud)
Followed up with 72 tenants of prosperity and karaoke session (sorry those we disturbed! we did check if we were bothering others but apparently our experiment needed larger parameters)
Really an awesome day minus the exam part. it feels good with ppl you <3 who are fighting the same battle as you are. Adding up that they are also from malaysia, it just made yesterday a priceless garlicky day :)
11.30 onwards : fun in the purest awesomest form :)
went to watch ice kacang puppy love with my galfrens. and it was really good. made me miss malaysia so much as everything was relatable. the movie used old money, old policeman outfits and old everything :)(really showed the effort put in to create that atmosphere)
the movie was funny but at the same time touching (yours truly actually teared during the movie!)
Really something all studying abroad should go watch just to miss home. :P
(favourite character : fish leong as barli-pin :D)
Then we went shopping. Shopping for food that is. One rule for the day. Just grab anything you have been craving from to eat for a very loong time ( home cooked food tat is). With that,you get an array of random ingredients giving experienced cooks a headache wat this bunch of gals are trying to do. (i got my corn :D:D:D)
So we went back to cook.. and everything we touch has a HUGE tint of garlics in it - just because we bought a whole pack and didnt want to waste too much.
The results were awesomeness :) very eattable everything! (we definitely made our mummies proud)
Followed up with 72 tenants of prosperity and karaoke session (sorry those we disturbed! we did check if we were bothering others but apparently our experiment needed larger parameters)
Really an awesome day minus the exam part. it feels good with ppl you <3 who are fighting the same battle as you are. Adding up that they are also from malaysia, it just made yesterday a priceless garlicky day :)
Monday, April 26, 2010
TWO MORE and i am done
314 done.
many ask how was it?
my answer - done :D
Cannot wait for tomorrow :) not cos of 204b la =.= but time with the galfrens :D and hints of shopping :D yippee yippee!
reminder to self : hallo you still have 204b in the morning pls. stop slacking and start mugging!
Gah sometimes i think i need a personal smack-er to smack me when i slack..
many ask how was it?
my answer - done :D
Cannot wait for tomorrow :) not cos of 204b la =.= but time with the galfrens :D and hints of shopping :D yippee yippee!
reminder to self : hallo you still have 204b in the morning pls. stop slacking and start mugging!
Gah sometimes i think i need a personal smack-er to smack me when i slack..
Saturday, April 24, 2010
i wanna party la
By partying i mean having a chance to wear all the awesome clothes i have stashed in my wardrobe. Have been living in oversized t shirts and shorts and occasionally jeans ( for exams) for a month! gah. hate exams
2 paper down! tragic but done. 3 more to go. Omg i cannot wait for 27th to come so tat I can have some time with my galfrens. and a chance to dress up :)i cannot wait for this exams ordeal to be done! ( though i am thinking i will be a little disoriented after exams needing to move out from hall). And then nat plan, home, germany, italy and romania! woo hoo..
back to the books :S
2 paper down! tragic but done. 3 more to go. Omg i cannot wait for 27th to come so tat I can have some time with my galfrens. and a chance to dress up :)i cannot wait for this exams ordeal to be done! ( though i am thinking i will be a little disoriented after exams needing to move out from hall). And then nat plan, home, germany, italy and romania! woo hoo..
back to the books :S
Friday, April 23, 2010
lesson learned
I learned a valuable lesson today. That i was right all along. It pays to have high self defense as it stops you from being delusional. It gives you an objective albeit realistic view of things. It makes you cynical and really cautious about things, but again it allows you to look at things the way it is. Never let emotions get in the way as it just complicates things and blurs reality. Crucial lesson learned and life principle reinforced. ( And it pays to listen to your mother :D)
I learned that it is ok to experiment and experience new horizons way out of your comfort zone, but be aware and have your self defense mechanism well in place to cushion anything that may go wrong.
And careful when playing with fire, cos you may get burned in the process.( Or have a real strong self defense mechanism in place to protect you from harm)
Valuable lesson learned and to be added into another chapter of my life story. Time to turn a page and move on.
On a lighter note, defense science is tomorrow :S With good wishes from Malaysia and Korea and Taiwan as well as my NTU's support system, i bet i will kick ass tomorrow :D
I learned that it is ok to experiment and experience new horizons way out of your comfort zone, but be aware and have your self defense mechanism well in place to cushion anything that may go wrong.
And careful when playing with fire, cos you may get burned in the process.( Or have a real strong self defense mechanism in place to protect you from harm)
Valuable lesson learned and to be added into another chapter of my life story. Time to turn a page and move on.
On a lighter note, defense science is tomorrow :S With good wishes from Malaysia and Korea and Taiwan as well as my NTU's support system, i bet i will kick ass tomorrow :D
Friday, April 16, 2010
add in milan :)
I have officially booked my tickets to frankfurt like a week back?
Yesterday i booked both mine and monic's tickets from frankfurt - milan and milan-bucharest!
So yeah i am going to italy!!! :)
PS : realised damn shit a lot of things to research when going travelling to an unknown place ( i shall compare europe to the moon as its same same for me.. super clueless wei! )
now now now.. back to studying my money making module econometrics and the module tat will enhance my money making module stats 2!! (somehow have this weird mindset that econometrics regardless how tough it is is my pathway to immense wealth - dun ask me where i got tat from.but at least i dun mind studying for it now :D)
Yesterday i booked both mine and monic's tickets from frankfurt - milan and milan-bucharest!
So yeah i am going to italy!!! :)
PS : realised damn shit a lot of things to research when going travelling to an unknown place ( i shall compare europe to the moon as its same same for me.. super clueless wei! )
now now now.. back to studying my money making module econometrics and the module tat will enhance my money making module stats 2!! (somehow have this weird mindset that econometrics regardless how tough it is is my pathway to immense wealth - dun ask me where i got tat from.but at least i dun mind studying for it now :D)
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
its tat time of the term again
exams is coming ... AGAIN :S don't ppl get tired of exams ever? i do :S
but the good thing about exams is well the after exams ! so i guess we need them to have the awesome after examness.. (rambling randomly)
my after exams is going to a hell of an awesome one! there will be nat plan to look forward too, frankfurt, romania, berlin,prague (hopefully), amsterdam, rotterdam, brussels, antwerp, luxembourg, paris , and then hopefully hyderabad for IC to look forward too!
all these kinda make exams bearable.. yippeee...
ok go study!!
(omg constantly hungry during exams wth!!)
but the good thing about exams is well the after exams ! so i guess we need them to have the awesome after examness.. (rambling randomly)
my after exams is going to a hell of an awesome one! there will be nat plan to look forward too, frankfurt, romania, berlin,prague (hopefully), amsterdam, rotterdam, brussels, antwerp, luxembourg, paris , and then hopefully hyderabad for IC to look forward too!
all these kinda make exams bearable.. yippeee...
ok go study!!
(omg constantly hungry during exams wth!!)
Friday, April 2, 2010
APXLDS an experience of a lifetime
i am back. from apxlds tat is. and omg wat an experience~!
My takebacks :
1) I gained more confidence to take on my role as president of AIESEC in NTU ( a tier one club :D)
2) I made real awesome frens from all around the world for life
3) I had an awesome time with 2 of my EBs ( which is really emotional for me)
4) I had an awesome time with 3 of my future LTs and got to know them better
5) I had my break from the crazy life in Singapore
6) I learned from other countries on how to improve on operations
7) I bonded with my lcp support system mandy and chah chah :)
8) I saw beautiful beautiful parts of Taiwan :)
9) I did random stuff in Taiwan which totally add more stories into my book of life
10) In a way, I see IC in a different light
11) I found out that I am naturally conservative and traditional and I am proud of it
Its been a few days since I am back and the post conference syndrome is still lingering around. However with an awesome night of bonding, heart to heart talk as well as some eye and mind opening conversations with my beloved EB, the syndrome is a little diluted ( though i still check facebook from time to time( ok alot))
PS : I LOVE my EB a lot a lot! really friends that will last a lifetime. Thank you for your support and care :) One of the greatest things i have gained in AIESEC is you!!!
PPS : I miss everyone from APXLDS :D again i wish we could meet again one day .. all of us :)
And so now its the time to fight fight fight! school plus aiesec.. its going to be an uphill journey but romania awaits at the end of the journey :) so hwaiting hwaiting ( korean for jia you :P)
My takebacks :
1) I gained more confidence to take on my role as president of AIESEC in NTU ( a tier one club :D)
2) I made real awesome frens from all around the world for life
3) I had an awesome time with 2 of my EBs ( which is really emotional for me)
4) I had an awesome time with 3 of my future LTs and got to know them better
5) I had my break from the crazy life in Singapore
6) I learned from other countries on how to improve on operations
7) I bonded with my lcp support system mandy and chah chah :)
8) I saw beautiful beautiful parts of Taiwan :)
9) I did random stuff in Taiwan which totally add more stories into my book of life
10) In a way, I see IC in a different light
11) I found out that I am naturally conservative and traditional and I am proud of it
Its been a few days since I am back and the post conference syndrome is still lingering around. However with an awesome night of bonding, heart to heart talk as well as some eye and mind opening conversations with my beloved EB, the syndrome is a little diluted ( though i still check facebook from time to time( ok alot))
PS : I LOVE my EB a lot a lot! really friends that will last a lifetime. Thank you for your support and care :) One of the greatest things i have gained in AIESEC is you!!!
PPS : I miss everyone from APXLDS :D again i wish we could meet again one day .. all of us :)
And so now its the time to fight fight fight! school plus aiesec.. its going to be an uphill journey but romania awaits at the end of the journey :) so hwaiting hwaiting ( korean for jia you :P)
Friday, March 19, 2010
a turn of events for the awesomer
Its 2.47 pm on a friday. YESSS the Friday of project submission. After 5 days of late (or early) nights and minimal amount of sleep i finally got it done at 4 am this morning. Thanks to awesome Chia Li its sign sealed and submitted with a bang! I dun really know whether the work is up to standard neither do i care really. The project has been getting on all our nerves that we just want to get it done with and move on.( Kinda like bad relationships :P)
Anyhooo...The night and mornings were peppered with awesome news to keep the brain juice flowing . Drumroll!!!
I AM MATCHED TO ROMANIA!! :D :D :D and.. another drumroll pls..
MONIC IS MATCHED TO THE SAME LC AS WELL!! whoopie.. traveling europe with another EB!! Hell that is super freaking awesome that it deserves an award for outstanding awesomeness :)
(That will definitely give our worried parents a chance to breathe. I think mine has been hyperventilating ever since I told them I wanted to go for exchange in Europe)
What is left for now is to prepare for TAIWAN and to get the LT a VP BD :)
TAIWAN and APX I AM COMING! :D
Anyhooo...The night and mornings were peppered with awesome news to keep the brain juice flowing . Drumroll!!!
I AM MATCHED TO ROMANIA!! :D :D :D and.. another drumroll pls..
MONIC IS MATCHED TO THE SAME LC AS WELL!! whoopie.. traveling europe with another EB!! Hell that is super freaking awesome that it deserves an award for outstanding awesomeness :)
(That will definitely give our worried parents a chance to breathe. I think mine has been hyperventilating ever since I told them I wanted to go for exchange in Europe)
What is left for now is to prepare for TAIWAN and to get the LT a VP BD :)
TAIWAN and APX I AM COMING! :D
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I am supposed to be slogging my ass off for my econometrics project. Of which i will resume doing after ranting here. Gah !
I am so annoyed and irritated! Y?
Cos i have yet to receive confirmation for my DT in Romania. I wanna know fast cos if not i can continue the whole tedious process of matching. ( Maybe i should) GAH! i hate waiting and i am NOT the world's most patient person.
Cos i have to complete this crazily tedious and confusing project in 4 days.Damn babi celaka.
Cos i have yet to have the time to prepare for Taiwan.
Cos I am going to use a lot of money of which i do not have much.
Cos the 'auntie that is supposed to visit me every month' is not here yet. Which means it may just come during my 10 days in Taiwan. Which is very the babi mafan!
I feel so restless sitting here trying to understand what all these tests are telling me.
AND i am super HUNGRY!
GRRRR! ( I guess me being so mang zhang shows that 'auntie' is coming soon. just dunno when. like my reply for DT! ) GAH FASTER COME CAN?? :S
I am so annoyed and irritated! Y?
Cos i have yet to receive confirmation for my DT in Romania. I wanna know fast cos if not i can continue the whole tedious process of matching. ( Maybe i should) GAH! i hate waiting and i am NOT the world's most patient person.
Cos i have to complete this crazily tedious and confusing project in 4 days.Damn babi celaka.
Cos i have yet to have the time to prepare for Taiwan.
Cos I am going to use a lot of money of which i do not have much.
Cos the 'auntie that is supposed to visit me every month' is not here yet. Which means it may just come during my 10 days in Taiwan. Which is very the babi mafan!
I feel so restless sitting here trying to understand what all these tests are telling me.
AND i am super HUNGRY!
GRRRR! ( I guess me being so mang zhang shows that 'auntie' is coming soon. just dunno when. like my reply for DT! ) GAH FASTER COME CAN?? :S
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
many things to be thankful for
I am grateful really for many many things.
1) Daddy's operation went by smoothly with no complications ( THANK GOODNESS!). I only got to know about this AFTER his operation. OMG i guess if my mum told me before i would be freaking worried. Though she should for then i will go back to KL la to give my daddy moral support. ( looking at doctors poking and probing on your leg while you are awake is NO nice experience ever) I hope they gave him a whole body check up while he was there to ensure as he is fit and healthy..
2) Awesome girlfrens who are supportive all the time. <3 i know that an outing with them will always bring me up to the sunniest of moods. love love love
3) Current EB! This is really probably the best team I have worked with in my life to date (I am anticipating greatness with the LT ) The chemistry and how we complement each other is really an amazing thing ! Always love the HTHT we have..
4) I did not bring mei mei's notes to SMU! ( THANKFUL! )
5) APXLDS that is coming up soon!
Not to be selfish but I really hope for two more things to be grateful for.
1) sun sun lei lei get through midterms and assignments before flying off to taiwan
2) A match with an awesome DT ( romania romania wait for me !!! )
crossing fingers
1) Daddy's operation went by smoothly with no complications ( THANK GOODNESS!). I only got to know about this AFTER his operation. OMG i guess if my mum told me before i would be freaking worried. Though she should for then i will go back to KL la to give my daddy moral support. ( looking at doctors poking and probing on your leg while you are awake is NO nice experience ever) I hope they gave him a whole body check up while he was there to ensure as he is fit and healthy..
2) Awesome girlfrens who are supportive all the time. <3 i know that an outing with them will always bring me up to the sunniest of moods. love love love
3) Current EB! This is really probably the best team I have worked with in my life to date (I am anticipating greatness with the LT ) The chemistry and how we complement each other is really an amazing thing ! Always love the HTHT we have..
4) I did not bring mei mei's notes to SMU! ( THANKFUL! )
5) APXLDS that is coming up soon!
Not to be selfish but I really hope for two more things to be grateful for.
1) sun sun lei lei get through midterms and assignments before flying off to taiwan
2) A match with an awesome DT ( romania romania wait for me !!! )
crossing fingers
Thursday, February 25, 2010
overwhelmed
CNY is over. Ok so its not the 15th day yet but I am back in Singapore. So my CNY at the very least is over. Humph.. it always puts me in a icky mood whenever i am forced yet again to leave home back to the tiny red dot.
Of course upon arriving its immediately to preparing for the Assessment Centre for the LT hopefuls. That was a crazy rush. And then there was the 18 hours of AC itself. As tiring as it was, it was definitely a great day. Its awesome seeing how our members have grown in their journey in AIESEC and it is apparent during the AC. Another awesome point will definitely be spending 18 hours with the full EB team.Something that is really appreciated on my side. I love EB!
Results are out and its great receiving acceptance emails as it is to me a reconfirmation of their commitment to make AIESEC in NTU awesome for the coming term :D
The harsh realities of school has hit me hard upon arriving to Singapore. Its crazy.. but at the very least i still can convince myself that wat i am learning is of some interest. So its all bout creating the mood for me to indulge in my 'interesting' school work. And thank god for awesome girlfrens that lightens up whatever dreary black cloud school puts above my head.
I can see that my journey as LCP is going to be an uphill task and it definitely can be overwhelming at times. But for the sake of all my member's development as well as mine, I am going to fight to win!!
Of course upon arriving its immediately to preparing for the Assessment Centre for the LT hopefuls. That was a crazy rush. And then there was the 18 hours of AC itself. As tiring as it was, it was definitely a great day. Its awesome seeing how our members have grown in their journey in AIESEC and it is apparent during the AC. Another awesome point will definitely be spending 18 hours with the full EB team.Something that is really appreciated on my side. I love EB!
Results are out and its great receiving acceptance emails as it is to me a reconfirmation of their commitment to make AIESEC in NTU awesome for the coming term :D
The harsh realities of school has hit me hard upon arriving to Singapore. Its crazy.. but at the very least i still can convince myself that wat i am learning is of some interest. So its all bout creating the mood for me to indulge in my 'interesting' school work. And thank god for awesome girlfrens that lightens up whatever dreary black cloud school puts above my head.
I can see that my journey as LCP is going to be an uphill task and it definitely can be overwhelming at times. But for the sake of all my member's development as well as mine, I am going to fight to win!!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
good week
after a horrible week last week, this week definitely is considerably a million times better. Why?
1. Confusion slowly cleared up
2. Turbulent emotions slowly soothed and calmed
3. AWESOME galfrens time
4. Friday :)
5. Taiwan tickets finally booked
6. CNY coming - nearer and nearer - HOME!
7. good ole shopping
8. Emails that made my days
Lets hope this awesome week goes on until CNY at least. Home is getting nearer as the clock ticks and i cannot wait!
1. Confusion slowly cleared up
2. Turbulent emotions slowly soothed and calmed
3. AWESOME galfrens time
4. Friday :)
5. Taiwan tickets finally booked
6. CNY coming - nearer and nearer - HOME!
7. good ole shopping
8. Emails that made my days
Lets hope this awesome week goes on until CNY at least. Home is getting nearer as the clock ticks and i cannot wait!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
this may sound ungrateful
SAB was named Malaysia's best 20 schools. Tat to me is amazingly funny. I mean really, I made good friends in SAB, had lots of fun, lived through life in a breeze of laughter and craziness, again had lots of FUN and... well that is about it.
I guess we all did well in our studies and totally scored in our public exams. but in a way tuition did contribute a lot to that as well (or self studying)(ok we did have some awesomely good at teaching teachers). Stuff beyond studies like sports and other stuff, we were rather nonexistent. ( Except for kawad of which we ARE AWESOME!!!! hands down the BEST in zone pudu) We had our fair share of good and not so good teachers just like other schools. hmmm and that makes me wonder.. how in the world did we get on TAT list..
I personally wasn't inspired by anything or anyone in SAB. Everything was just so easy and we could basically get away with anything. ( with some ingenious plotting i would say) Life was really a breeze den with very little challenges for people to grow whatsoever. Of course if i did not do my form 6 in MBS i probably wouldn't have realised all this.(but that is another story)
I think there can only be three reasons how SAB got into that list.
First - SAB has really improved a million times compared to during my time of which i personally think would be awesome for the thousands of students who are to be educated there from now onwards. ( i really hope they get good experiences there that will carry them through life)
Second - The ranking system is flawed. And that will not come as a surprise to me.
Third - We have really low standards for our schooling system (of which will not come as a surprise to me either)
My final two points :
1 - I think MBS should be on that list(personal point of view as i really think its a school that inspires and motivates its students to strive in life- largely thanks to the teachers who genuinely cares)
2 - Woo hoo at least VI is not on that list! ( and tat is rather good sense IMHO)
I guess we all did well in our studies and totally scored in our public exams. but in a way tuition did contribute a lot to that as well (or self studying)(ok we did have some awesomely good at teaching teachers). Stuff beyond studies like sports and other stuff, we were rather nonexistent. ( Except for kawad of which we ARE AWESOME!!!! hands down the BEST in zone pudu) We had our fair share of good and not so good teachers just like other schools. hmmm and that makes me wonder.. how in the world did we get on TAT list..
I personally wasn't inspired by anything or anyone in SAB. Everything was just so easy and we could basically get away with anything. ( with some ingenious plotting i would say) Life was really a breeze den with very little challenges for people to grow whatsoever. Of course if i did not do my form 6 in MBS i probably wouldn't have realised all this.(but that is another story)
I think there can only be three reasons how SAB got into that list.
First - SAB has really improved a million times compared to during my time of which i personally think would be awesome for the thousands of students who are to be educated there from now onwards. ( i really hope they get good experiences there that will carry them through life)
Second - The ranking system is flawed. And that will not come as a surprise to me.
Third - We have really low standards for our schooling system (of which will not come as a surprise to me either)
My final two points :
1 - I think MBS should be on that list(personal point of view as i really think its a school that inspires and motivates its students to strive in life- largely thanks to the teachers who genuinely cares)
2 - Woo hoo at least VI is not on that list! ( and tat is rather good sense IMHO)
The end
Monday, January 18, 2010
THANK YOU
Thank you AIESEC in NTU for believing in me :) Let us work together to make AIESEC in NTU awesomer than it already it!
Thank you AIESEC Week OC and Comms members for putting in so much effort for AIESEC week! Our time is coming and i am sure we are gonna soar and fly high!!
I swear I LOVE AIESEC! ( hey that is wat our T shirt says :D) and so should you !!
Thank you AIESEC Week OC and Comms members for putting in so much effort for AIESEC week! Our time is coming and i am sure we are gonna soar and fly high!!
I swear I LOVE AIESEC! ( hey that is wat our T shirt says :D) and so should you !!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
gah go away
flu and sore throat and cough go away!
unnecessary thoughts go away!
unnecessary feelings go away!
though..
HE 205/204b ( i am not picky really) please come to me!
unnecessary thoughts go away!
unnecessary feelings go away!
though..
HE 205/204b ( i am not picky really) please come to me!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
as lucas calls it - emo dumping ground. though this post is not emo!
Many things have happened in this few weeks. Its been AIESEC-ing , NLDS , home , results, back to singapore, school starting soon
Its been a pretty emotional (both ups and downs) for me this few weeks. I made a decision that will impact me deeply and also enrich my aiesec experience.( I am running for LCP). There has been some pretty dramatic and rather silly events happening at home. I met up with frens in KL of which i do miss a lot. I felt the desperate urge to leave singapore immediately to go back to KL. I felt reluctant to leave home but at the same time eager to come back to Singapore to continue AIESEC-ing. I don't want school to start. I realise the deep urge within me to go for exchange. I had to learn to literally forget about stuff and get on with life. I learned how to accept my results (aahha ok this is not really emotional. more like no feeling whatsoever)I met and said goodbye to ppl at nlds. I went through a rather kan jeong lcp application.
I am now back in singapore to fight again:) its going to be an interesting sem with Taiwan to look forward to in March (crossing my fingers!!) and January to survive(with pride).
PS : Thank you Kevin Tan Teck Meng for the awesome design :) (I know you have read this :P)
Its been a pretty emotional (both ups and downs) for me this few weeks. I made a decision that will impact me deeply and also enrich my aiesec experience.( I am running for LCP). There has been some pretty dramatic and rather silly events happening at home. I met up with frens in KL of which i do miss a lot. I felt the desperate urge to leave singapore immediately to go back to KL. I felt reluctant to leave home but at the same time eager to come back to Singapore to continue AIESEC-ing. I don't want school to start. I realise the deep urge within me to go for exchange. I had to learn to literally forget about stuff and get on with life. I learned how to accept my results (aahha ok this is not really emotional. more like no feeling whatsoever)I met and said goodbye to ppl at nlds. I went through a rather kan jeong lcp application.
I am now back in singapore to fight again:) its going to be an interesting sem with Taiwan to look forward to in March (crossing my fingers!!) and January to survive(with pride).
PS : Thank you Kevin Tan Teck Meng for the awesome design :) (I know you have read this :P)
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